The feeling of new is always fresh and exciting – like the slate has once again been wiped clean. Now is the time.
I am always so excited for the new year. I keep things bottled up inside of me, and the new year gives me a chance to spill them onto the floor in a largely metaphorical sense, but even so it lifts a weight of my shoulders like most of you wouldn’t believe. I don’t have a hard life. My life is wonderful, and I am so lucky to be where I am right now, with whom I am right now and all those lovely things. But the weight of the world spinning round gets on top of all of us.
New beginnings smell like freshly cut grass on a spring morning.
I’ve never completed a new year’s resolution – I make one or two every year, but I don’t think I ever follow them through. It’s nice to have a goal, but somehow a little… disheartening…to never reach it.
My first and foremost resolution this year is to look after myself. This year a lot of the downs have been because I don’t look after myself. I don’t eat enough fruit and veg, I don’t exercise enough, I don’t give myself enough time to do what I want, and feel fulfilled. I need to look after me – my counselor is always saying, I am the most important person and I need to make sure that I am looked after, and the only person that can do that is me.
My second resolution is to look after my boyfriend. Our 2 year anniversary is approaching fast (March 4th) and I want to make the day really special. He stresses himself out very easily and he gets worked up about things that are really okay. I need to be the one to make it okay for him. He’s so important to me, I just want him to be happy, always.
I have others, like writing more and drawing a little more, and trying to work hard on my GCSE work. I need to do really well in my GCSEs to get where I want to go.
I am blooming.
I know it seems an odd thing to say, but I am blooming. For the first time I looked in the mirror and saw something beautiful, and that feels so wonderful. I’m looking into the future for once, and I’m not stuck searching in the past. Expect a poem about this!
I want my life to be as fulfilling and sparkling as possible – and I think I can do it.
I think I can do it.
Oh, it’s so fantastic!
I love this.
2014 is going to be the best year – the year that I finally grow up!